I'm posting twice in one day. 3 if I get any more emo.
My thought process as of 10 minutes ago. I tell myself that I can only succeed at music in SoCal. True? I don't know. So far, I can't do anything. I'm too busy working and trying to make ends meet to get my music off the ground. Then there's that little girl in Sacramento that is killing me with her absence. Why the hell am I here? I act as though something is keeping me here. South County. Ok, so my church body (which is amazing, I can't lie) but I'm not making any money at that so I can't get ahead. My boss, while cool, is not letting me have consecutive days off so I am stuck with a day here a day there. I'm troubled. I'm not at ease. I know I can lead. I know I can be in ministry. Is southern Orange County my only outlet? If Ryan Walton can be an established worship leader, why can't I? This is killing me folks. Why am I here? Is it where God wants me? I feel I have learned a lot here. But I don't know that it's not time to move on. Help. I'll end with a quote from my dear friend Benji:
"People always tell me this is part of the plan, that God holds everybody in his hands, but I can only pray that God is listening. Is he listening??"
The Author...
- Jeffrey
- Have I grown tired on the journey or have I grown tired of the journey?
3 comments:
Not to be a musical snob but...I'm pretty sure that you mean Joel, not Benji
wow ivoryonics, you just missed the whole point of the post completely. way to focus on the lame details.
I didn't mean to come off that way. And I definetly didn't "miss the point". Me and Jeff go out to eat at least twice a week and discuss what it's like to be a starving musican, and ponder where God is leading us. We went to high school together, we're trying to "make it" together, and we're both dealing with the girls we love living far away (mine is in Idaho)...together. Not only are we on the same page, we're in the same sentence. The Benji/Joel stab was because we always try and "up" the other one at or knowledge. We're music snobs. Hope I clarified
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